PLACES x CITIES: ON A ROAD OF INTROSPECTION IN HONG KONG

by misscarlytan

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Taken on Tsing Mah Bridge in Hong Kong, China.

So, I suppose I’ve become one of those people I hate. I am the epitome of procrastination at its finest, and it is a goal of mine to stop this behaviour (or, lack thereof) immediately! Or at the very least, try to curb it. Although, sometimes it does work to my advantage – so I tell myself.

It’s been a strange last 6 months. Lots of changes in my life, lots of introspection, the comings and goings of people. Lots of happiness and sadness. Simply put, a lot of soul searching was needed and in its process, I’ve had a hard time finding my groove.

I was stuck in a perpetual cycle of desperately needing a creative outlet (bursting in fact), yet being unable to think of anything to say, photograph, do, or create; nor could I find the motivation to do the things I loved or kept telling myself I was going to do! Things such as writing more, booking a role in a play, exploring deeper into photography, experimenting with paint and canvas, toying with the idea of vlogging, reaching out to XYZ businesses to garner more clients for my co-founded company RedBow Creative, getting my driver’s license, the list goes on. Can anyone else relate to this?

On top of which, I was often too tired or distracted by my personal life. As a result, the days just slipped away, and I was suffocating while losing my sense of individuality (that, I am still trying to rediscover). And the cycle went on and on.. almost like when you know you shouldn’t reach for those chips and should probably go to the gym instead, only to end up eating the entire bag, not going to the gym, and feeling progressively shittier and shittier until you just don’t know what to do with yourself anymore! Not speaking from personal experience or anything..

But don’t worry, there is a light at the end of the tunnel! A very bright one, in fact. Getting out of my little rut has certainly been a slow journey for me, but I think I’m finally getting there. *knocks on wood*

Important Things I’ve Re-Learned Over the Past Two Years:

+ taking things one day at a time (being patient with oneself)
+ adding mental structure and discipline into daily tasks (from work to health to simply doing the chores that I don’t want to)
+ life is so very short and time ought not to be wasted (dreams don’t just appear out of thing air, people!)
+ you are the captain of your ship and are solely responsible for your own happiness
+ STOP comparing yourself to others; it is toxic and a waste of time
+ not to downplay or minimize your own achievements, talent, or sparkle just to make others feel better or more comfortable (a little ego never hurt nobody, take credit for your greatness!!)
+ music is amazing, and why did I stop actively listening to it? Radio and bars don’t count.

..I really thought this list would be longer, and it probably is, but I have a headache.

So, for now, there you go. I hope this is the beginning of many things to come. Lots of art, rants, the nitty gritty, travel, and other creative pursuits.

And if you’ll have me, let’s go on an adventure together.

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